Busted! I’m a faker

For years I was faking it. I thought I loved myself, but my actions didn’t come close to matching.  I acted as though I was mediocre. I treated myself in ways I wouldn’t treat my worst enemy. The way I was acting toward myself  was being mirrored back to me in all areas of my life, from my diet, I would drive from fast food restaurant to fast food restaurant raiding their dollar menus and I would eat entire loaves of bread and quarts of ice-cream even though they would hurt my stomach badly. It affected my relationships, too, and the ways I treated my body because I was so mean and focused on hating parts of it. My careers or lack there of suffered as I was in a job where I would pray I would get into a car accident so I didn’t have to go or held jobs just for the money. Even my home environment felt it. It was a disaster zone full of clutter. And even my hygiene was affected like how I hadn’t gone to the dentist in years. It was reflected in the way I dressed myself. As my grandma would say, “I was schlepping around looking like a schemata.”

 

The way I was acting was not the way that someone who truly loved themselves would act.

 

I had enough of this self-defeating non-loving behavior and was done feeling as though I was stuck in a rut. It wasn’t a good feeling and I was craving a shift. I was the only one who could  get me out of my funk so I declared from that moment on I would act as though I loved myself right now even if sometimes I felt like I was faking it. I started out by simply doing things people who loved themselves would do and I was going to get started immediately.  Not after I was happily married. Not after I got my diet perfect. Not after I was successful. Not after I had the means to hire a cleaning professional to keep my home beautiful.  Not after anything, but right away! What the heck was I waiting for anyway?  Life was passing me by and I didn’t want to miss another minute of it. My life was never the same again.

Sometimes you don’t even notice how mean you are acting toward yourself. I challenge you to look at an area in your life where there is a disconnect between knowing you love yourself and acting like it.  What would that area look like if you acted loving towards yourself? Start acting that way right away.

Leave a comment sharing how you can show yourself some love today. Let’s inspire each other.

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