Are you being a drama king/queen?
If so, bitch slap yourself! Just kidding. Kind of.
I used to be a major drama queen when someone asked me, “What are you getting out the drama?”
At first I was like, “Yo lady. I’m not getting anything out of the drama. It’s just happening to me. It’s not my fault.” She was like, “You are getting something out of it otherwise you wouldn’t be creating it.”
Doh! She was right and I was petrified to admit it.
What was I getting out of the drama? Actually, lots of things.
The highs and the lows were thrilling.
By focusing on drama filled relationships I shifted focus away from going big myself.
I was always “fixing” everyone else’s stuff to avoid working on my own stuff.
Pleasing other people instead of myself made me think they would like me and that was really important because if they didn’t like me there must be something wrong with me and that was scary.
Trying to make other people happy was easier than doing things to make myself happy.
My life wasn’t all unicorns and sparkles like I wanted it to be perceived as and I was embarrassed so I kept pretending and creating more and more dramatic situations.
I lived in a constant state of drama and I caused it in many of the people I loved lives. I would cause screaming matches with roommates, say really mean things to friends I loved and I would call out of work last minute because I was exhausted from all the drama which caused more drama. All of the drama in my life caused me to be dramatic in all areas of my life and I was choosing to stay in it.
I had to take a hard look at why I was acting the way I was. I had to look at what I was avoiding by bringing drama into my life. It’s dark, scary and ugly, but it was part of me. By shining a light on those parts instead of avoiding them I was able to clear them up and set them free.
If you can relate to my reasons for being a drama queen I challenge you ask yourself,“What are you getting out of the drama?”